Farther Than I Ever Expected

My grief has taken me

On trips unimaginable

Past the atmosphere

Under the ocean floor

So much farther than I ever would have chosen

If given a choice

I saw things

Felt things

Held things

Smoked things

I remembered so much

Forgot so little

I held on too tightly 

And still the next thing I knew

I was free falling

I always was an extremist 

I always had an overactive imagination 

I always laughed

In fact, I’m still laughing 

All the acceptance in the universe

Won’t take away the missing 

Doesn’t change the permanence 

The I’m here

And you’re not

But I accept myself anyway 

And do whatever I can 

To live the life of my dreams

And I’ll wake up tomorrow

And every day 

Until my last one 

And I’ll breathe

And I’ll smile

Until my grief 

Sets 

Me 

Free