it's abandonment
cuz there weren't enough words
or, well, enough right words
displacement and a means to an end
a countdown to eternity
i couldn't decide if it was more important
to like something or to love something
i couldn't decide
why all of a sudden those seemed like such different things
sometimes i wanna be sad
and i just end up neutral
i didn't want to want anymore
and i didn't want to have
and i certainly did not want to be neutral